QUOTE OF THE NOW

"Our life evokes our character. You find out more about yourself as you go on. That's why it's good to be able to put yourself in situations that will evoke your higher nature rather than your lower. 'Lead us not into temptation.'" Joseph Campbell

Sunday, December 20, 2015

For those who've watched the new Star Wars...

The following is pure 100% spoiler. I've just got back from seeing it for the first time and I'm all fangirly and want to talk about it, so leave if you haven't seen it yet.

I'll put on some elevator music while I wait for you to go away...






There is way too much to talk about! I feel like this movie was jam-packed with interesting elements, a bit hard to take in. I loved it, loved it, loved it.

1. This is what a science fiction universe should look like. Not just diverse in aliens, but in human characters too. Our X-wing hero is a Guatemalan-American, and our other lead guy is black, and of course our protagonist is female. There are women all over this thing, including among the baddies! The X-Wing pilots included aliens! It was almost distracting because the sets looked just like old Star Wars, but minus all the white guys. So sweet. (But the main baddies were white. We'll see what the paranoid white racist dudes will think of that!) (Update: Here it is! tr;dr) (too racist; didn't read)

2. One thing I didn't like with movies 1-3 is they're overly CGI-ed -- it's not always realistic looking. This movie had seamless effects. It looked and felt just like the originals.

3. One thing I enjoyed about movies 1-3 were all the costumes and foreign worlds and species. There was less of that in this movie--it was less exotic. More like Game of Thrones where you're in a mostly familiar land, a subtle sort of fantasy. But I wonder if we'll get more of it in movies 8 and 9. There wasn't room for it here, which is fine.

4. The music disappointed me. That was another strength of movies 1-3 -- Williams came up with some beautiful new themes that helped convey the emotion even when the storytelling/script fell short. Movie 7 had very strong acting and writing and plotting, so it didn't have to rely on the music. But I missed it. The incidental music was good, echoing all six of the previous films (and Raiders at one point); but the big "we blew up the Death Star thingy" theme fell flat.



5. The casting and acting were so good! I didn't know Boyega (Finn) could be so funny! The second half of the movie was more emotional, like Empire; but the first half was funny like New Hope, and Boyega shone. There was great chemistry with our protagonist Ray so I definitely hope for a romance there. :-)

6. I think we knew Solo would die in this trilogy. The writer Kasdan wanted to kill him in Jedi, as did many. We saw in Firefly how effective and moving that can be, to take out a main character. (And then George RR Martin took it to 11.) But the original movies were supposed to be Saturday morning serials, and I'm glad Lucas insisted on keeping it that way. I was a child, and I got to enjoy what he wanted children to take from it--a sense of wonder and hope, a spur to my imagination. The ending with everyone alive and well was perfect.

Force Awakens feels like what happens if you take Lucas' universe and push it one step further into the realm of Serious.

It felt deeper, a bit more adultier. With Han and Leia's son turning to the dark side, and the effect on their relationship and on Luke, and on the kid himself--there is a lot of pain. It's like starting off with Empire. So though movie 7 feels like our good old universe, it's going to have its own flavor, just as 1-3 did.

7. I hated Leia's first outfit and hairdo. She has a short neck, so she looked terrible. And the hair too--it made her look so old. Why did they do that to her? Lord. I wonder why they couldn't/didn't get Trisha Biggar on costume design. The second costume was better, but the hair was weird. Like... it would take forever to do that second hair design--what general spends that much time on her hair?

8. They did a great job of making the characters well rounded. They echo the roles played by the original characters, but each with their own twists. The writers have given them all vulnerabilities, which (as Lani Diane Rich via Brene Brown points out) helps us connect with them.

Ray is almost a Mary Sue--she's great with technology, ships, flying; but also discovering all these Force-ee skills. Very much like Luke, growing up on a barren planet, yearning for something else; but even lonelier than Anakin or Luke cause she has no family. You care about her immediately.

Finn was basically a slave, brainwashed, expected to commit mass killing, and now he's struggling to become a new kind of person. He even leaves at one point, like Han Solo. ("He's got to follow his own path, no one can choose it for him.") As Campbell said about Solo: "The adventure evoked a quality of his character that he hadn't known he possessed."

And finally our villain Kylo Ren--he's so sad and conflicted, the poor little guy! Out of control, being turned a bit mad by the effect of the Dark Side. The writers achieve the idea that "Everyone is the hero of their own story" -- I like the way the Light Side is seen as bad, and something you don't want to be corrupted by. He does terrible things, but the writers have already instilled in us the desire to see him redeemed by movie 9. The acting and writing and directing make his struggle what Anakin's should have been like in movies 2 and 3. (Anakin's turn to the Dark Side wasn't terrible, but it was a bit on the melodramatic side.)

9. I'm interested by Ray's use of the Force in her fight scene. She calms and centers herself, just like Luke learned to do; but then she comes out swinging. That sort of heavy attack is, from my understanding, more of a Dark Side thing. When Luke calmed himself, it always led to him to taking a passive or self-sacrificing choice. He let himself fall down the duct in Cloud City, and he put away his light sabre in the battle with Palpatine, and stopped himself from killing his father and threw his weapon away completely. Interesting contrast.

10. BB8 was ADORABLE. A delightful puppy. And our X-Wing hero was a delightful puppy too. And Lupita Nyongo's character was lovely.

11. Chewbacca was my favorite character as a child. I had a 6' cardboard cutout in my room, and I kinda disliked Leia for calling him a walking carpet. The love is clearly etched on my brain, because when he was shot I gasped. My mouth was hanging open and tears sprang to my eyes.

12. Did Philippe Petit build that goddamned ship they were on? What the hell. Would it kill you to install a handrail? As Sigourney Weaver screamed: "It doesn't make any sense! Whoever wrote this episode should die!"

13. The Force stuff was definitely weaker than in Empire and Return of the Jedi. Well, it's hard to top Yoda (my other fave character as a child.) Movie 7 had depth of emotion, but I think spiritually/philosophically it had less depth. We'll see what they do with 8 and 9, when Luke's around, and we try to save poor ole Kylo.

14. Does Carrie Fisher wear ill fitting dentures?

15. It was so painful to watch the Millenium Falcon being slammed against the ground! I almost covered my eyes.

16. What are the implications for killing stormtroopers now that they aren't clones?

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Friday, November 27, 2015

This is such a strangely modern song

I don't wanna steal your freedom
I don't wanna change your mind
I don't have to make you love me
I just wanna take your time

I don't wanna blow your phone up
I just wanna blow your mind
I don't have to take your heart
I just wanna take your time

Sam Hunt - Take Your Time


Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Monday, November 23, 2015

Flashback: Platinum Blonde - Not in Love

I think this one holds up better than a lot of other 80s pop.



Thursday, November 19, 2015

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Friday, November 13, 2015

Sinead O'Connor - Take Me to Church

I feel like I've posted this before. Ah well, just in case. Great song.


Thursday, November 12, 2015

Seinabo Sey

This woman's pretty fuckin' A.




Tuesday, November 10, 2015

I can't keep track of all the "I will survive" type songs out these days

Leona Lewis - Thunder


Rachel Platten - Fight Song


Jessie J - Masterpiece


Well, hey, here's some more... make it a theme day:












Sunday, November 8, 2015

Lady Gaga - Till It Happens to You

You when you hear a song on the radio, but you're driving and you're not really listening to the lyrics, the song just sounds good?

And then you get home and watch the lyrics and it's about rape? (Well, it could be about other traumatizing events, but the video is very graphically about rape. But ends with some survivor bonding.)

Ack!

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Young Galaxy - Factory Flaws (play the lyrics game!)

I tried working out the lyrics, since it hasn't been done online. See the stuff in bold if you want to help out! That last verse is just a hot mess, I can barely understand a thing.

 Update: I changed the lyrics still missing to xxx because sometimes it's easier when you don't first read someone else's preconceived and oh so wrong ideas.

RED = CORRECTIONS Thank-you Barb and my brother! Anyone else? Help!!

Update 2: As per my brother's brilliant solution, I wrote to the band on their facebook page and just remembered to check for a response. All lyrics now correct and accounted for!



You told me you were broken from the start
You used your hand to put mine to your heart
You said: I can't feel this
I'm not sure I exist

Spoke of all the trouble in your town
Too prevalent for you to step around
Forcing you to bury
A burden too heavy

You warned me of the potential cost
Of losing myself to those who are lost
I said it's much better
To be lost together

And devote ourselves to a dream
And never fall into routine
To keep our lines open
And live with what's broken

I know you're in pieces
I know I'm at sea
But something about you keeps calling to me
I know all your secrets
You know all of mine
The past is the past and it's better left behind

Your crooked paws

Your factory, factory flaws
Your highs your low

I love it all more than you know
Your whirl your woe
Your factory, factory clothes
Your crooked glow

I love it all more than you know



Friday, November 6, 2015

A still enjoyable oldie

From Corey Hart. Heard it on the radio one day and was like--Oh yeah, good song!


Thursday, November 5, 2015

Gibraltar - Beirut


At work I use a French keyboard setting, so I can have easy access to è and é and so forth. But it's messing up my English typing! I keep mistaking where the apostrophe and question marks are.

My French is slowly improving, but really... rather than feeling like I'm improving, I tend to instead feel like my English is getting worse, and now I'm just mediocre in both languages!


Tuesday, November 3, 2015

Downtown - Macklemore and Ryan Lewis (and a bunch of old school rappers and a Cher Dude)

You know, I'm not sure if I'm as much a Macklemore fan as I am a Ryan Lewis fan. What I love hard about this song is that chorus with the Cher-sound-alike. Lewis just makes really beautiful music.


Sunday, November 1, 2015

Corb Lund - Run This Town

Boy I really haven't been around! I think I've been pouring my extra energy into the ongoing task of getting this apartment back into shape.


Thursday, September 10, 2015

Being politically correct is hard

The other day we rewatched 42 (the movie about Jackie Robinson.) There was a line I liked--oh lookie! It's on facebook. This is a scene where the pro-integration owner of the team shows one of his southern players that for ever "carpetbagger" reference he gets, Robinson gets 10 death threats. The owner tells the player:

"The world's not so simple anymore. Guess it never was..."



This is a good summary of white privilege--of what it means to open yourself up to someone else's reality. Every time you do, your world becomes more complicated. Which I think in part explains why people resist. Being politically correct is hard.

You can't make a joke anymore. Everyone's too sensitive. You have to think about everyone else's feelings before you open your mouth. Bla bla bla. 

It's easier to bitch that political correctness is the problem, rather than the behavior you grew up with. Meanwhile there are all these people whose lives have already been made complicated by their attempt to survive with the dominant group. They've been accommodating you for perhaps centuries. Wearing a hoodie is more complicated for a black American teenager. Walking alone at night is more complicated for a woman. And so forth.

The world was already complicated--for everyone else outside your privilege group. You just never noticed.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Friday, September 4, 2015

Escapee from a Robert Palmer Video

"Bryan Adams' toe-tapping song, "You Belong To Me," has been paired with a head-scratching video in which a woman rubs her hands all over him the entire time." (Mashable)

Inclined to agree. She looks like an escapee from a Robert Palmer video. Why not just a video of a live performance in a bar? He looks like he's cringing the whole time. This sort of thing pairs better with a Prince song.




Thursday, September 3, 2015

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Phoenix - Lisztomania

Did I share this already? I don't see it.


Monday, August 31, 2015

Ria Mae - Clothes Off

Did I not post this one? One of the sexiest songs on airplay at the moment.


Vulnerability and facebook

Facebook isn't really suited to vulnerability. I'm not going to post details of my marriage Trials & Tribulations because my husband and lots of people he knows are on there. I get why people mostly post the good stuff, even if it fosters My Life Sucks Comparison Disorder

But I still like to hear someone bitching, or see pictures of kids being weirdos, or posts about politics and religion--I feel like I learn more about the person, and I feel facebookly closer to them. I have one friend who posts lots of pictures of his wife, and goes on about how much he loves her, but also posts honest feelings about his disappointments in life, with religion, with his work history etc. You can't fb-hate someone like that when they then post pictures of their happy marriage. You've connected to their vulnerability and like them all the more for it. They're human, they're like you.

Well, if we can't always do that on social media, we can at least do it in our fiction.

Saturday, August 29, 2015

How to break the viewers' hearts, in 10 minutes or less

We didn't ball over (original) Spock's death because of his sacrifice, but because Mr Invulnerable became vulnerable. First, on a physical level--the usually tidy and clean cut officer is a mess. And second, he expresses his love for his best friend.

And Kirk's reaction is just right as well. We already took it to 11 (KAAAAAAAAAHN!!!) But this is someone he's known much longer than he knew his son. And as a man of action, what could make Kirk feel more vulnerable that to be forced to stand and watch, unable to make even a pretense of fixing it? And we see the physical expression of his powerlessness, when he flops down at the end like a puppet.

This scene is one of the reasons Wrath of Kahn is the best of the Star Trek series.



...And on another note, this scene is, again, the reason why we may not be disappointed by the new Star Wars movie. Love how the alternate universe concept shows us why Kirk and Spock became such good friends--how they're capable of the same great act of self sacrifice, given a role reversal. (Not to mention: KAAAAAAAAAHN!!!)

Friday, August 28, 2015

How to make the viewers love a character in 5 mins or less

We were rewatching the Star Trek reboot recently, and I was awed yet again at how the director* makes you care about the death of someone you've known about three minutes (Kirk's dad.) And it's not by making him sacrifice himself for his crew; it's by making him listen to the birth of his son and say to goodbye to his weeping wife right as he's dying.



(Of course, a lovely bit of scoring never hurts.)

You could only get more vulnerable by having the baby and wife die instead of him--but that's Mad Max, which is a whole other sort of thing.


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* This is why JJ Abrams is our new hope.

Thursday, August 27, 2015

More empathy than a Counselor Troy

I recently posted the Beatles' song "Getting Better" and my dad commented:
"I used to be cruel to my woman ... "

A raw and real lyric from John Lennon, apparently. You got to love songwriters who are willing to take the risk and put such things from their own lives out there...

And I've argued before that that's one of the ways Eminem and Kanye made it to the top of the rap ladder--by being vulnerable in their art.

Our couples' counselor is a big Brene Brown fan; but before him, there was my dad who read her books and wrote an article about her; and before him there was Lani Diane Rich. It was back when I listened to the Storywonk writing podcast that I first heard of her. She'd seen Brene's original hit Ted talk, and was struck with the realization that making your protagonist vulnerable is what will set them apart--this is what kicks your writing up a notch.

Even the King of Froth, PG Wodehouse, gave his characters weak spots--and we love Bertie Wooster all the more for his mortal dread of Aunt Agatha.

I don't think I fully got Lani's point, though, even after watching the Ted talk. Not even after reading Brene's first book. It really clicked when, in order to connect better with Fernando, I started to actively try and be more vulnerable and more empathetic. (It would have to be that way, right? You only understand empathy by practicing empathy?)

I'm trying to catch myself being unempathetic, and invulnerable, which means I'm in observation mode. Fernando's getting sick of it cause every time we watch a movie now I'm all "Ohh that scene worked because he made himself vulnerable." Or "Ohhh that was a poor empathy response." I basically rewatched all 6 Star Wars movies with a new lens on. (Fernando was patient, but he's hit his limit now. I'm vulner-banned.)

So this has basically come full circle. I started thinking about vuln/emp because of writing, it made its way through my intellectual and emotional lives, and now it's back to properly inform my understanding of art. And presumably make me a better writer. ...If I write.

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Who can listen to this song one more time?

This is definitely one of my favorite Postmodern Jukebox productions. The pianist is having a blast.








Monday, August 24, 2015

I've got to admit it's getting better

This past winter, I remember walking out one day at the end of work, around 6 PM, and it was light outside for the first time. I mean, noticeably so. I felt a physical lifting inside me. A section of the low level depression I'd been feeling was just gone, as spring made its way in.

Sometimes you don't know how much the different elements of your life are getting you down, until one of them is changed. It was a weird feeling--and a bit of a relief to see how this one segment was so easily fixed.

Then, 5 weeks ago, I got my new job and--WHAM! Another chunk of depression fell off, like a crumbling Montreal overpass. And again, the difference was breathtaking. Bigger this time than the spring change.

So I've started to see my life in these discrete segments.

Obviously my marriage is one important one. I try not to talk about it too much on the blog, so I'll just say it's gotten better. We may stay together, we may not, but quality wise things are better. And when my happiness increases in other areas, it naturally affects the others. So the new job has helped A LOT.

This messy, disorganized home is another. I got a lot done on my vacation before my new job, and now work away at it in chunks. So I was feeling better. The warm August weather has sapped some energy, so I'm less satisfied... but things still happen. I finally hung up all the jewellery I'd bought in Nanaimo, and organized the rest. I cleaned out old writing papers (and read an amusing grade 7 essay.)

Since I can't do that much in the home, I've refocused on my writing--another important area. Not overly optimistic, but better than nothing. Oh, and I guess there are some areas I take for granted. The Friends & Family situation was always good. Different friends at different times, but always had supportive people around me.

When I was younger and I'd have a little depressed period, it would last 6 months, and then just sort of lift. But climbing out of a midlife crisis apparently requires some work, cause you become discontented with almost every area of your life! You're looking at everything in your life, taking stock, trying to redirect the course. There's a lot of deep thinking involved, a lot of confusion and what not. So it's not going to lift in a moment. But it's getting better all the time.


Sunday, August 23, 2015

Friday, August 21, 2015

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Songs by Jerks #4 - "Tell Me More" (Grease)

For one reason:

Tell me more, tell me more
Did she put up a fight?


Creepy background singers. On the fromage level, I should also give special mention to friend Swis Girl's favorite cheese: Travolta's weird "Oh" at 3:07.



I never liked Grease anyway. Weirdly sexist or something. But "You Are the One That I Want" is a great song, and great for covering:

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Brush up your Shakespeare: Helleth yes

Since I'm blathering on about Shakespeare... if you want some Shakespearian inspiration or education, I would recommend a few series.

Shakespeare Uncovered - Various actors and directors take you through a play, or series of plays, showing scenes from various productions and discussing the major themes. I'm just finishing up season 1, but there's a season 2 as well. It's good, it's well done--if you'll always wanted to get into Shakespeare, this is a great place to start.






Slings & Arrows - About a beleaguered Shakespeare festival in a small town, run by a has-been actor who's fighting against madness. All three seasons are brilliant.  Great characters, funny, sweet, sad, a great critique of corporate culture--but ultimately they wanted to inspire people to enjoy Shakespeare, and it succeeds there too.


For each season you follow two plays, and the King Lear in season 3 is my favorite. The Lear is played by a character who's dying of cancer, who's at times an asshole, at times falling apart--the final production of the play (what we see of it) is super moving. And the whole thing is dirt cheap if you download from apple.


Shakespeare Retold - Modernisations of Shakespeare (or retellings like the one I'm doing, or 10 Things I Hate About You, etc.) are not really Shakespeare-Shakespeare. Cause if you aren't listening to the language, to those incredible speeches, those beautiful turns of phrase--then how much Shakespeare is left? He lifted the plots, after all. But they can still bring a new understanding to a play, or simply inspiration to seek out the originals. This is a great series for that.

Actually I'm due for a rewatch, and I never did watch Macbeth. (Starring James McAvoy!)  I recall finding their Taming of the Shrew quite romantic.


BONUS - Two Elizabethan black guys see Othello for the first time!


Tuesday, August 18, 2015

"It's a beautiful world, boys and girls!"

I'm on a Shakespeare kick in part because I'm trying to adapt Richard II; but there's another reason.

It drives me crazy when I read a favorite author, and I'm overwhelmed by their talent. I simultaneously love them and want to murder them.

I've been reading some older PG Wodehouse, written when he was still discovering the style that would eventually make him one of the most revered comic writers in... hmm I can't say The West. Because one of his biggest fan bases is in India. Probably any country with educated English-speakers has a decent contingent of Wodehouse fans, cause he was a master of wordplay.

And one of his greatest masteries was over the simile. When you read a fabulous Pratchett simile, you are seeing the grandchild of PG Wodehouse. But they're almost non-existent in his early works. The comic characters are emerging, and the comic set pieces, but when do the similes start?

Of course I've tried to find clues in Wodehouse interviews to how he wrote so well. He once said he reads all of Shakespeare every year or so. In past I'd read that and think: What a different time we live in. People used to be so well read in the westerns classics. Not a virtue in and of itself--it's all Dead White Men--but there were so many Latin and ancient Greek and mythological and Biblical and Shakespearean references, it created a sort of common language among anyone educated in the English grammar school. Even Bertie Wooster, Wodehouse's dumbest character, could reference Balaam's ass thanks to his education.

It only occurred to me lately to wonder: What influence did this have on Wodehouse's writing, aside from his ability to reference Shakespeare? I only read or watch maybe one play per year.  Maybe what's missing in my writing is that I don't read Shakespeare every year!

I still don't see myself reading the swan of Avon's works annually. But I've started bookmarking various performances, because I could certainly up the number of the bard's works I watch every year. Then who knows... maybe in forty years I'll be a Wodehousian genius.

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The brilliant scene where the normally shy, now drunk, Gussie Finknottle gives out the Snodsbury Grammar School prizes:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoNBVEj3650
    "But let me tell you that there's nothing to stick on side about in winning a prize for Scripture knowledge. Bertie Wooster----"
    I don't know when I've had a nastier shock. I had been going on the assumption that, now that they had stopped him making his speech, Gussie's fangs had been drawn, as you might say. To duck my head down and resume my edging toward the door was with me the work of a moment.
   "Bertie Wooster won the Scripture-knowledge prize at a kids' school we were at together, and you know what he's like. But, of course, Bertie frankly cheated. He succeeded in scrounging that Scripture-knowledge trophy over the heads of better men by means of some of the rawest and most brazen swindling methods ever witnessed even at a school where such things were common. If that man's pockets, as he entered the examination-room, were not stuffed to bursting-point with lists of the kings of Judah----"
   I heard no more. A moment later I was out in God's air, fumbling with a fevered foot at the self-starter of the old car.

Monday, August 17, 2015

Yea Aulde Library

When I was in high school* I often went to the library after school, before going home. So much so that to this day I can't set foot in my library (the same one of my youth) without needing to go to the bathroom--since that was the first thing I would do after school. I'm 42 years old and still conditioned.

I'm on a bit of a Shakespeare bender right now, which brings me back to those high school library visits. Sometimes I would take the gigantic tome of complete Shakespeare, and just sit at a table and read. Eventually my parents bought me my own.

But I also loved to borrow the VHS and LP productions. I remember sitting in my bedroom by the LP-tape player my mother bought me, under head phones, listening to Shakespeare and opera.

I watched the tapes of the BBC's 1970s TV series of Shakespeare. I don't know if I watched all of them; and as my college Shakespeare teacher rightly pointed out, some of the productions were quite stilted. But it was about all the library had, so it was good enough for me. And there were lots of great actors, like Alan Rickman, Derek Jacobi, John Gielgud, Helen Mirren, Tim Piggot-Smith, John Rhys-Davies, Claire Bloom, Julian Glover, Kate Nelligan, Sinéad Cusack, Patrick Stewart, John Cleese, Jonathan Pryse, Anthony Hopkins, Penelope Wilton, Bob Hoskins, Ben Kingsley, etc.

I'm watching Shakespeare Uncovered (once again, borrowed from the library--I recommend) and they show clips from those old versions, which is what got me thinking about them.

...I don't have anything heavy-deep to say. Just revisiting an old love, rediscovering an old part of myself.




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* Meaning grades 7-11. We only have one level of secondary school in Quebec, and it only goes to grade 11.

Sunday, August 16, 2015

He can't feel his face!

You hear this song on the radio, it sounds like a standard R&B song, you tune out the lyrics. Until the chorus!

"I can't feel my face when I'm with you."

wtf? Is it about drugs? About love? About his career? About all three?

Also he has crazy hair.


Saturday, August 15, 2015

Me & Ayn Rand 4

I think my final thought was/is this...

Sometimes people who support animal rights, or animal charities are criticized for caring more about animals than people. As long as there are starving kids, you shouldn't spend money on pets, or rescues, or causes, or Cecile the lion.

But I don't think you can approach charity with this sort of dry, utilitarian reasoning. Are we really going to take all the suffering of the world and rank it? And then only pay attention to the group at the top, while we ignore everyone else?

If there's a stray cat in your neighborhood, are you going to ignore it, or bring it to the SPCA to probably be put down, because how awful to spend money on extra cat food, and constructing a little hidey-hole for the stray--how awful to spend that money on a cat than on a child!

Someone on facebook the other day was criticizing the cities that have banned the sale of new animals, complaining that such decisions are unfair to good breeders, and take away people's choices, and then they're going to order online. (I don't know how you order a puppy online.) He finished it by criticizing people for making decisions based on emotions.

But we can't and should not ignore our emotions. Tolstoy tells a fable about a king who wants to learn when's the best time to begin something, the right people to listen to, and the most important thing to do. By the end of the fable he learned:

...there is only one time that is important -- Now! It is the most important time because it is the only time when we have any power. The most necessary man is he with whom you are, for no man knows whether he will ever have dealings with any one else: and the most important affair is, to do him good, because for that purpose alone was man sent into this life!' 

 I first read this in a kid's book, and think about it all the time. The most important person is the person in front of me. We're allowed to feel love and compassion for anyone, any creature, who crosses our path. It's good for us, and it's good for the world. Do I have a big scholarly argument to back me up? No. This is instinct. And the result of reading about Ayn Rand.

Friday, August 14, 2015

Me and Ayn Rand - part 3

Reading all this Ayn Rand drama helped me articulate the idea that the only way to really be logical is to pursue emotional intelligence. We have emotions, and we're going to have them no matter what we tell ourselves. If we ignore them, then we'll make all kinds of decisions that we think are based on logic, but aren't really. The emotions will try to break out of us no matter what we do; and in the process, break us.

Ayn Rand was a little dictator, and her pursuit of pure reason made herself and everyone around her unhappy.

Aside from my creativity, I can be pretty left brained. I like things to fit, I like answers, I like congruity, I like figuring shit out. Reading Ayn Rand's biographies, back in the day, reminded me that it's not possible to operate on pure logic. And for all our divided-braininess, our reason and emotions aren't totally divorced from each other. After all our most basic emotions are part of the ancient lizard part of our brain, and it evolved for the only purpose of survival. Eg. We follow the herd because the herd if usually right. We bully people different from ourselves, because in a close-to-the-bone existence difference can threaten the survival of the group. We feel mad, passionate feelings of love because it encourages procreation.

It's good that we can temper these reactions through a more modern reason-based lens; cause that reason is also a good survival mechanism. Protecting people who have original ideas and creative solutions helps you compete for resources; but you can't lessen bullying unless you acknowledge it exists, and understand why.

...I think I still have one more point to make. Stay tuned.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Me and Ayn Rand - Part 2

I later went on to write a short story about Ayn Rand. I forget the details, but it was a sci fi story where people could commission androids of famous people; and the Ayn Rand android ended up having a major emotional meltdown because of the contradictions in her programming.

And this is the heart of why I find Ayn Rand interesting: She's a great cautionary tale. Rand convinced herself and only logic mattered, and all decisions should be based on logic, not emotion. When she met a younger man--a big fan--whom she had a major crush on, she sat her husband down and logicked him into allowing her to have an affair (or an open relationship I guess.) She explained that for two such great minds to come together physically was simply the logical outcome of their soulmateyness. Her husband became an alcoholic.

Eventually Branden realized he wasn't attracted to Rand physically. He wasn't attracted to his wife either (they'd married at Rand's instigation), and then he met and fell in love with someone else. Both Branden and his wife feared the day he would have to tell Rand. And sure enough her fury was off the charts. She banished Branden from her circle, and eventually his wife too.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Me and Ayn Rand - part 1

The first year I worked in a big box bookstore is when I first heard of Ayn Rand. My boss and one co-worker were fans so out of curiosity I read Fountainhead. It was a weird experience; cause when you're reading Fountainhead you naturally think of arguments to counter her ideas, but her characters simultaneously tell you that if you're thinking of These Counter Arguments then it means you're (to use a useful expression) in the Matrix. So the first thing I noticed about her is that she wasn't so much making good arguments as trying to take away your power debate her by saying "And if you don't agree with me then it proves you're stupid."

I started hanging more and more with the co-worker fan--a bit younger than me, and came to Rand in his teens, as I later realized most do. Understandably. We liked to have long philosophical arguments about all kinds of things. Having been taught by Stephen Covey to "seek first to understand before seeking to be understood" I did a lot of listening, asking questions.

Then, I don't know why, I went to the library and got out a couple biographies. Hoo puppy. And then I became a fan. Not of Ayn Rand, but of Ayn Rand biographies. She was mostly a horrible person teaching terrible ideas, but a very interesting woman.

When I reported back to my friend that the woman who espoused individuality above all else, had kept about her a cult of personality and brooked no (and I mean NOOOOO) dissent, it disillusioned him.

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Sean Connery Shakespeare

Been watching The Hollow Crown, which my mum got me for Christmas a couple years back. A combo of Richard II / Henry IVs / Henry V.



Love that speech from Richard II: "For God's sake let us sit upon the ground and tell sad stories of the death of kings..." Interesting to watch the different takes on it.

And I see they're making a second series with the Henry VIs and Richard III starring Cumberbatch.

This is actually the second time that the Richard II / Henry IVs / Henry V plays were turned into a mini-series. In the 60s there was a series called An Age of Kings which did all the above mentioned plays. And included James Bond as Hotspur.


Monday, August 10, 2015

Heavy Deep Talks With a Nephew

I'm listening to my husband having a long chat with his oldest nephew. They're quite alike in some ways. Fernando often gets frustrated with me for speaking off the cuff without thoroughly thinking through what I'm going to say before saying it--and we found out his nephew does the same thing. Think it all through, then speak. (Not sure the nephew's age, but he's a preteen.)

They're reading The Hobbit and The Maze Runner together. The conversation started off with Tolkien, then moved on to the n-word, slavery and the confederate flag.

Then Fernando spoke to him about empathy. How it's easy to hurt people's feelings; but to be good you need to have empathy and learn how to listen and how to speak.

They just touched on Hitler. Living in a police state.

The overarching theme seems to be: Read books, cause they will teach you all these important things you need to know.

Now he's teaching him that he's privileged. lol

I'm often quite proud of him, this person I married.

Sunday, August 9, 2015

The Great Disappointments

Yesterday I discovered my old copy of Richard II. I thought I'd never read it, but upon opening the book and seeing scribbled notes, I realize I must have read it for my Shakespeare course at McGill! It was the most boring class ever, taught by a man with occasional flashes of wit, but far past his years of enthusiasm. Funny, I do remember reading A Winter's Tale in his class, but that's it. Year long course and I don't remember what we studied. Yet here are my notes.

Another nice side effect of my new job--my nails have grown back!

- 2 visions of monarchy in R2, mutually exclusive in this play...
R is a victim but gets release by taking command of own destruction

Bolingbroke = hero of the play
Northumberland = platwright and director
BUT enter stage left, Ricky!
a self dramatist who steals the show
- better at this game
-changes directions

Hmm, these are interesting notes. 

This class was one of the great disappointments of my English BA. The other was the Greek mythology course--a filled auditorium at the beginning, reduced to 10 people by the end. Most boring prof ever. Now he was still enthusiastic--but mostly about showing us his slides from all his trips to Greece, and the various places mentioned in the myths.

Slide after slide of this. Except more brown grass, and smaller bits of ruins.



Reading

Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love
Les années douces : Volume 1
Back on the Rez
My Stroke of Insight: A Brain Scientist's Personal Journey
Stupeur et tremblements
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